sunshine above my head

i love you.
with all my heart and soul.
i love cupcakes, i love cows, i love lots of things
but i love u more than anything
i can't guarantee u total happiness
i cant guarantee you a perfect relationship
but i will be there by your side
no matter how hard its looks like
for better or for worse
that is a promise
you are my sunshine
you are my sweetest cupcake
you are my love
you are the best that i have ever had
thank you for loving me
i am deeply in love with u,
syujauddin shahruddin. :)

hello hello. :)

let me tell u what happened last night.
pkl 9 plan nak g jonker. afiq nak g.
tp pkl 10 baru gerak. haha.
ada org lmbt.
agagagaga.
g ambik afiq then g jonker.
3 kereta g jonker.
jalan2 jap.
me n kay beli takoyaki.
lamak x mkn eh.
akhirnya mkn juak mlm tek.
then g d'laman.
sbb diorg lapar.
dah g mkn kat d'laman g pantai puteri pulak.
masa tu dah pkl brape tah.
sampai2 main air laut.
then diorg main kejar2. haha.
best giler tgk.
then main the killer.
khairil punya game.
kena psycho ouh game tu.
then main game yg nyanyi2 tu.
aku surrender awal.
xleh tangkap. ahah.
then tgk jam pkl 3 ktorg balik ar.
agaga. htr afiq balik then ktorg pun balik.
balik la sgt.
lalala.

dan skrg.
aku ngantok.
tdo lmbt bgn awal.
agagaga.
oh ya.
dan lapar.
agagagaga.
:)

hello hello.
yesterday someone add me on fb.
im shocked.
it is alip who add me.
wah. lamak alu x dgr khabar nya eh.
then we chat for a while.
cerita2 la. mcm biasa.
tnyk pa khabar pa indah.
and as i expected he asked about apis.
and ada ayat nya nang best la.
sabar ajak la.
makin terok dah nya eh.
he admit himself.
nya kdrk tauk nya gne.
gne ndak ka upa nya netok ka.
ahah.

i have a feeling that i do not understand. i just want to cry. a lot. seriously. but i dont have a reason to cry for now. but i want to cry. i want to do some stupid things that keep running in my head. oh god. what is happening to me? why am i being like this? i hate being like this.

i am happy now. seriously i do. having him by my side makes me happy. but somehow deep inside my heart i want to cry my lungs out. i want to be hurt. physically. not emotionally. i've been telling him a lot of weird imaginary stories. but imagine it did not satisfy me. i want it to be real. and when it comes to real, that will be the last time u will saw me.

im not satisfied with my life. i never had. that is why my blog title is unsatisfied. it sounds like im not being grateful right? but this is me. u dont know about me. i've had enough with life. im tired. seriously. can i just end it please? i've suffered enough. i know im a weakling. people always said " u should be grateful. there are other people outside there who suffer more than u". like i said just now. i've had enough.

i wish things to be in different ways.
where can i find doraemon?
i need him now.

hello people.
if u're a regular viewer of my blog u should realize that i've change my layout.
just for fun.
back to the basic.
i've tried to put a pic behind the header.
i've edited some pic from my laptop.
tp mcm x kena.
agagaga.
testing je.
im trying to edit the html myself.
blh buat layout blog sendiri. gaga.

dah2. babai.

hello hello hello. :)

last sunday bkn sahaja housemate aku yg balik. tp warga cyber turut dtg ke rumah lama.
yana , nabila n nisha.
nabila sampai sama dgn mira. yana n nisha mlm ckit.
ptg tu g ambik kak syelly n intan kt mc then g beli brg.
mlm tu mkn satay. lame dah x mkn satay. :D
dan juga secret recipe.
celebrate bday nisha yg dah lepas masa cuti.
sorry la kecil kecilan sahaja nisha.
hope anda enjoy dgn kek itu. :)
ktorg beli different type of cake. tp smua chocolate. haha. :D
then mlm itu jugalah kecoh pasal shujak.
yana n nisha dah expect dah. haha.
mira excited giler.
1st soalan kak syelly masa masuk dlm kereta ptg tu adalah "shapple dah ada bf baru eh?'.
aku hanya mampu tersenyum dan cerita. :)

on monday pula begini ceritanya.
ptg itu mira sakit kak syelly pun sakit.
yana n nabila beli mknn kat kuning sahaja dan mkn kt bilik.
9.30 pergi dp.
tgk cerita G.I Joe. start at 10.
best gak ar cte tu.
hbs at 12 then jalan2 kejap then balik.
mlm itu yana n nisha g ixora beli burger.
rindu burger ixora. haha.

on tuesday pulak.
diorg balik.
bas pkl 8.30 pagi.
aku masa tu tgh tdo.
nasib mira kejutkan.
haha.

im listening to fall by the saturdays. sumpah best. it suits me.
thanx yan. haha. mmg lagu i dowh. :D