i have a feeling that i do not understand. i just want to cry. a lot. seriously. but i dont have a reason to cry for now. but i want to cry. i want to do some stupid things that keep running in my head. oh god. what is happening to me? why am i being like this? i hate being like this.
i am happy now. seriously i do. having him by my side makes me happy. but somehow deep inside my heart i want to cry my lungs out. i want to be hurt. physically. not emotionally. i've been telling him a lot of weird imaginary stories. but imagine it did not satisfy me. i want it to be real. and when it comes to real, that will be the last time u will saw me.
im not satisfied with my life. i never had. that is why my blog title is unsatisfied. it sounds like im not being grateful right? but this is me. u dont know about me. i've had enough with life. im tired. seriously. can i just end it please? i've suffered enough. i know im a weakling. people always said " u should be grateful. there are other people outside there who suffer more than u". like i said just now. i've had enough.
i wish things to be in different ways.
where can i find doraemon?
i need him now.
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