sunshine above my head

hello hello. :)
this post is about two beautiful angel who came to mmu melaka just to meet us.

i hope we can meet again someday.
i'll wait for that day to come.
then we'll have so much fun again k?

i love u!
yana, sya, yan, kay.
:)

hello.
today is our 1st monthsary.
1 month dah ktorg.
unbelieveable.
kay ckp mcm baru semalam je ktorg couple.
aku plak rasa mcm dah lama dah ktorg couple. ahah.

happy 1st monthsary sayangg! :)
i still remember that day.
the day that u propose to me.
walaupun i short term memory tp i ingat la gak.

"i dont have the guts to say the 3 words"
"what words?"
"143"
"that is not a word. that is a number."
"take a deep breath"
"i love you ok. malu."
"really? kenape i?"
"xtaw. i cant explain why. it happened for reason."
"will u love me when i said i do love you?"
"yes"

it was on 29/7/2009.
it's the happiest moment for both of us.
until he became speechless.
both of us didnt know why we like, love each other.
as he said before,
it happened for a reason.
that night is still fresh in my mind.

thank you syg.
thank you for loving me and give me sweet memories.
i'm really happy when im with u.
there are no words that can describe how i felt about u
even if i said "i love u as big as infinity", it is still not the perfect word.
nothing can be compared my love to u.
nothing can replace u.
u've made my day.
u're my john lennon, my alex turner, my sunshine, my cupcake, my everything.
u're the best syg.
i love you until the end of my lifetime.


i love you syuja'uddin shahruddin. :)

last night main hujan lagi.
kali ni lagi best.
basah habis.
sbb hujan lagi lebat dr yg 1st.
tmpt ktorg g pun lagi luas.
dataran merdeka (tu la nama die kot)
yg dkt dgn mcd n tasik tu.
sejuk gler malam tadi.
mengigil tp xnak balik. ahah.
ktorg kalau boleh nak lari satu padang.
nyanyi lagu negaraku sempena merdeka.
sbb nampak bendera malaysia.
john semangat nak merdeka. ahah.
thanx john. sbb main hujan lagi dan the memories.
kan best kalau dpt ambik gambar
nanti kita spin around lagi k? tggu next hujan. :P
luv u syg.

luv u a lot my john lennon. :)

hello hello
i've just finished my exam.
oh. exam yg aku buat camtu je. haih.
i have to do my assignment before going to the exam.
at that time i have only 10 minutes to print and send to lecturer.
suppose dah siap malam tadi tp part member lain x sampai kat aku.
tggu punya tggu tgh hari tadi baru aku dpt.
dateline pkl 4 exam pkl 3.
dgn internet ep lagi yg buat hal. adoii.
pergi kedai printer ade problem la, kakak tu lmbt2 la. adoii.
tp thanx to john sbb tolong htr assignment for me.
thanx syg. thanx a lot. u saved us . :D
at that time 5 minute lagi nak g exam hall
masuk2 je org dah duduk dan start.
thank god aku sempat sampai. :)

next agenda lepas exam.
interview.
aku pun x phm kenape la nak interview diorg.
tp dgr je la ape yg diorg ckp.
both from mmu.
sorg ex student sorg student
both taking engineering.
sorg mechanical sorg telecommunication x slh ar.
diorg bgtaw mcm mana nak jd entrepreneur,brape diorg dpt, bla bla bla.
camne diorg boleh involve dlm entrepreneurship bla bla bla.
lepas interview baru ktorg boleh keluar dr exam hall.
nasib x kena tahan lama.

oh berakhirnya exam midterm.
tinggal final exam je.
good luck!
utk org yg masih ade exam.
:)

hello hello.
saya ingin memaklumkan bahawasanya
hari ini adalah birthday
Amirah Aimi bt Mohammed
selamat hari jadi cha.
besar sudah anda.
semoga panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki wahai room mate ku yg tersyg.
have fun on your bday.
walaupun hari puasa dan anda ada presentation di esok hari.
sorry celebrate kecil kecilan sahaja.
tp tidak apa.
anda sudah 19.
saya belum. :(

hello dan selamat pagi
sudahkah anda sahur?

mlm ni hujan.
mmg best.
paling best?
main hujan.
lagi best?
dgn encik john lennon. :D

hujan hari ni mmg paling best
after lepak dgn kay sara afiq helmi dan john
main hujan jap.
kejap je sbb jalan g kereta je.
then g depan rumah john.
dan kami berdiri diluar.
dancing in the rain.
kalau ade org tgk sumpah org pk ktorg gila kot.
ahah. biar la. peduli ape.
dgn cubaan lumba jalan kaki lagi.
nasib x lumba lari.
spin around gak.
sumpah i love that moment.


thanx syg.
for the memories.
it was my first time.
dancing in the rain with boyfriend
i've always wanted that.
thank you syg.
im so gonna miss it.
i wish time stop at that moment. :)
lain kali kita main hujan lagi k?

dah. ni saja ye.
jeles pulak tgk mira tdo.
aku pulak xleh tdo.
kelas pkl 8.
hbs ar.
babai. :)

i miss u.

tipu la kalau aku ckp i dont miss u.

we've known each other for more than one year.
but in the end we go our separate ways.
it was ur fault and u did not see it
u're such a nice one when we 1st met.
why did we become like this?
i still remember those days.
when we sit in the car and talk
the way u propose to me.
it was my first time a man propose to me face to face.
and i took ur picture secretly.
kau selalu ckp aku xde kenangan
sbb aku pelupa
tp aku ingat sebenarnya.
eventhough u sucks.
deep inside ur heart there are still kindness.
where did the kindness go?

i dont have the guts to open our album again.
remember the album?
where we both made it ourselves in the car
and the notes and pictures that we draw
its still in the book.

thank you for the delicious cupcakes and movie
it was the first and last one from u.
thank you for giving me some memories about u, about us.
thank you for everything.
i hope u can find a new one.

because:
i've found one and he is far much better than u. :)

selamat berpuasa to all muslims in the world. :D
adakah anda puasa?

wah. i still cant believe today is the starting day of the fasting month. dulu aku selalu pk bila nak puasa bila nak raya. sbb nak bday cpt. ahah. tgk la betapa cepatnya masa berlalu. aku tgk calendar mmu bagi dan rasa mcm x lama lagi raya. kalau boleh aku nak esok raya sbb aku nak balik miri.
i miss home so much!

i still remember those days when i was in miri. before i went to mmu. tolong mummy buat cake n cookies during puasa. tp tu dah lama la. she stop baking cake and cookies when i was in form berapa tah. form 2 or 3 kot. idk. the reason she stop baking because of her station. i still remember she pissed off when her workers keep on calling everytime she bake her cake. she have to rushed to her station because of her workers. haih. since that day our raya cake is made by her sister. the only cake she make every year except for last year is her very own chocolate cake. it is a must-have-every-year cake. me n abg love it so much. tp last year my aunty yg buat. lain ckit rasa. mummy did promise me that she wanted to make her own cake for this year. but idk. who will help her when she bake? im not going back to miri until 16th kot. xkan la mummy nak tggu aku balik baru buat. mana ckp 1 week. i wish i am there to help her like i used to do. i love baking cake n cookies u know. seriously. oh. i miss her caramel pudding too. waaa. its been ages since she make that pudding. ngaaa. i miss those days. raya seems different since she stop baking cake. i didnt get the raya spirit as much as im used to. i miss watching our house busy with this with that. haih.
i wonder how will raya looks like for this year.

the things that i like when fasting is food. there will be a lot of bazaar ramadhan. oh. the foods. grr. buat aku nak beli smua je. ahah. nafsu makan. i miss ayam percik kat bazaar kat indoor kat miri. oh not forget ayam panggang,bubur pedas,mee jawa, laksa n more. wah. im soooo going there when im home in miri. nasi ayam kat saberkas pun. ngaa. laksa kak ros kat riam. ngaa. sabar sabar. haha.

last year's puasa me n my friends went to peringgit. some people says that it is the longest bazaar ramadhan. i dont care if it is the longest, the shortest the widest or whatsoever. yg penting. FOODS! ahah. oh kebab. n ntah ape lagi yg aku beli last year. lupe dah.
i miss going to the bazaar with sya yana kay n yan.

ok2. dah la. nak masak utk sahur. bye people.
selamat bersahur n berpuasa.
:)

im nothing to you.
thank you. :)

i love you.
with all my heart and soul.
i love cupcakes, i love cows, i love lots of things
but i love u more than anything
i can't guarantee u total happiness
i cant guarantee you a perfect relationship
but i will be there by your side
no matter how hard its looks like
for better or for worse
that is a promise
you are my sunshine
you are my sweetest cupcake
you are my love
you are the best that i have ever had
thank you for loving me
i am deeply in love with u,
syujauddin shahruddin. :)

hello hello. :)

let me tell u what happened last night.
pkl 9 plan nak g jonker. afiq nak g.
tp pkl 10 baru gerak. haha.
ada org lmbt.
agagagaga.
g ambik afiq then g jonker.
3 kereta g jonker.
jalan2 jap.
me n kay beli takoyaki.
lamak x mkn eh.
akhirnya mkn juak mlm tek.
then g d'laman.
sbb diorg lapar.
dah g mkn kat d'laman g pantai puteri pulak.
masa tu dah pkl brape tah.
sampai2 main air laut.
then diorg main kejar2. haha.
best giler tgk.
then main the killer.
khairil punya game.
kena psycho ouh game tu.
then main game yg nyanyi2 tu.
aku surrender awal.
xleh tangkap. ahah.
then tgk jam pkl 3 ktorg balik ar.
agaga. htr afiq balik then ktorg pun balik.
balik la sgt.
lalala.

dan skrg.
aku ngantok.
tdo lmbt bgn awal.
agagaga.
oh ya.
dan lapar.
agagagaga.
:)

hello hello.
yesterday someone add me on fb.
im shocked.
it is alip who add me.
wah. lamak alu x dgr khabar nya eh.
then we chat for a while.
cerita2 la. mcm biasa.
tnyk pa khabar pa indah.
and as i expected he asked about apis.
and ada ayat nya nang best la.
sabar ajak la.
makin terok dah nya eh.
he admit himself.
nya kdrk tauk nya gne.
gne ndak ka upa nya netok ka.
ahah.

i have a feeling that i do not understand. i just want to cry. a lot. seriously. but i dont have a reason to cry for now. but i want to cry. i want to do some stupid things that keep running in my head. oh god. what is happening to me? why am i being like this? i hate being like this.

i am happy now. seriously i do. having him by my side makes me happy. but somehow deep inside my heart i want to cry my lungs out. i want to be hurt. physically. not emotionally. i've been telling him a lot of weird imaginary stories. but imagine it did not satisfy me. i want it to be real. and when it comes to real, that will be the last time u will saw me.

im not satisfied with my life. i never had. that is why my blog title is unsatisfied. it sounds like im not being grateful right? but this is me. u dont know about me. i've had enough with life. im tired. seriously. can i just end it please? i've suffered enough. i know im a weakling. people always said " u should be grateful. there are other people outside there who suffer more than u". like i said just now. i've had enough.

i wish things to be in different ways.
where can i find doraemon?
i need him now.

hello people.
if u're a regular viewer of my blog u should realize that i've change my layout.
just for fun.
back to the basic.
i've tried to put a pic behind the header.
i've edited some pic from my laptop.
tp mcm x kena.
agagaga.
testing je.
im trying to edit the html myself.
blh buat layout blog sendiri. gaga.

dah2. babai.

hello hello hello. :)

last sunday bkn sahaja housemate aku yg balik. tp warga cyber turut dtg ke rumah lama.
yana , nabila n nisha.
nabila sampai sama dgn mira. yana n nisha mlm ckit.
ptg tu g ambik kak syelly n intan kt mc then g beli brg.
mlm tu mkn satay. lame dah x mkn satay. :D
dan juga secret recipe.
celebrate bday nisha yg dah lepas masa cuti.
sorry la kecil kecilan sahaja nisha.
hope anda enjoy dgn kek itu. :)
ktorg beli different type of cake. tp smua chocolate. haha. :D
then mlm itu jugalah kecoh pasal shujak.
yana n nisha dah expect dah. haha.
mira excited giler.
1st soalan kak syelly masa masuk dlm kereta ptg tu adalah "shapple dah ada bf baru eh?'.
aku hanya mampu tersenyum dan cerita. :)

on monday pula begini ceritanya.
ptg itu mira sakit kak syelly pun sakit.
yana n nabila beli mknn kat kuning sahaja dan mkn kt bilik.
9.30 pergi dp.
tgk cerita G.I Joe. start at 10.
best gak ar cte tu.
hbs at 12 then jalan2 kejap then balik.
mlm itu yana n nisha g ixora beli burger.
rindu burger ixora. haha.

on tuesday pulak.
diorg balik.
bas pkl 8.30 pagi.
aku masa tu tgh tdo.
nasib mira kejutkan.
haha.

im listening to fall by the saturdays. sumpah best. it suits me.
thanx yan. haha. mmg lagu i dowh. :D

im ready.

be prepared.

im taken by:
syuja'uddin shahruddin.

29/7/2009.

skrg baru aku nak bgtaw kan?
haha. biar ar.
byk org dah taw pun.

hello people.

remember i said about going to kl with afiq n sara?

ok. this is how the journey looks like. imagine it yourself.

i came back from kl on thursday and going to kl again on friday. seems like i dont need to go back to melaka kan? but. listen listen. on friday at 6 while cooking spaghetti afiq called and said "we're going to kl at 7". so im like. wth. masak pun macam ape. x sempat masak aym grg for abg. then pack everything and wait. at 7 afiq msg. nak rent car. adoii. so i asked mira for the number. i got the car and rushed to afiq's house then pick sara up. it was at 8 something. at 9 baru lepas tol ayer keroh. haha. afiq drive at 140. brgegar kereta. dah la kelisa je. lol. then sampai tol sg. besi at 10 kot. then going to khairil's house. dah la aku n sara pakai baju biasa. dammit. haha. meet kay,dilla,helmi,afiq,iman n more at khairil's house. mcm biasa. jd photographer. the pelamin is so nice. i like. the hantaran also. i want to get married too. haha. i like the cake gak sbb comel. :D kakak khairil is ssoooo beautiful. seriously. then i was told that the wedding on saturday is at 8pm. damn. aku bawak satu baju je. what im going to wear on the next day? that was what im thinking at that time. wait n see what happened. then going to rasta at ntah pkl brapa. shisha. oh i miss shisha. :P meet shujak :) and his brother n friends. then going to damansara, his brother's house. me afiq n sara tggl at his brother's house. sampai rumah tukar baju smua n mcm biasa gossip2 dgn afiq n sara. agaga. then khairil dtg. he brought us to one restaurant. i dont know what its name. tp nasi lemak die sedap. i like! oh ya. he also showed us mcm mana nak g wedding kakak die kat shah alam. then going back to damansara.main uno n bluff. aku benci bluff. aku slalu kena. haha. guess at what time we go to sleep? except afiq ar.die tdo awal. sampai rumah terus tdo. haha. ktorg tdo pkl 8 pagi. gagaga. khairil pun tdo kat rumah tu sbb mls nak balik. i couldnt sleep. sbb alarm from other room and other noises. bgn tdo bgn tdo. tu la keja aku. at 12 or 1 we woke up. going to bb. suppose ambik yan sbb die nak ikut tp x jadi sbb die balik dgn someone. agaga. meet kay n dilla at pavi. mkn kejap then balik. going to cheras 1st sbb kay n dilla nak ambik barang. the fun part is. ktorg kena tawaf 3 kali at the same road,tol n whatsoever just to go to cheras. haha. ktorg bknnya org kl. :D arrived at kay's house at 7.30. the wedding start at 8. bygkan. then going to damansara. afiq dgn sedaya upaya drive cepat2. nasib x sesat lagi. haha. then rushed to the house. siap smua n g shah alam. shujak pun ikut. :D going to shah alam. sesat lagi. sbb salah jalan. adoii. we arrived at the wedding at 10. :D jd photographer lagi. then going to mcd. then htr kay n dilla tp ambik dayat kat burger king. pertukaran. then head to melaka. shujak drive. i asked him to drive faster sbb tuan punya kereta dah tanya. ada sesat kejap then we manage to arrive at melaka at 3 something. send afiq home and then shujak then htr kereta. then going to emerald park. shujak htr me n dayat.

the end.

one thing i want to say.
aku benci jalan kl.
too big for little kid like me.
dgn jam lagi.
adoiii.
dan xleh blah.
3 kali tawaf jalan yg sama. haha. :D

but apart from that. we had a lot of fun. travelling with friends and him.
nak lagi please.
next time. xnak rent car.

hello sunshine. :)

underneath the moon, underneath the stars
heres a little heart for you
up above the world, up above it all
heres a hand to hold on to

but if i should break, if i should fall away
what am i to do?
i need someone to take, a little of the weight
or ill fall through

Chorus:
you're just the one that i've been waiting for
i'll give you all that i have to give and more
but don't let me fall

take a little time, walk a little line
got the balance right
give a little love, gimme just enough
so that i can hang on tight

we will be alright, ill be by your side
i wont let you down
but i gotta know, no matter how things go
that you will be around

Chorus

Don’t let me fall

underneath the moon, underneath the stars
here’s a little heart for you
up above the world, up above it all
here’s a hand to hold on to

Chorus

you'll be the one that I’ll love forever more
ill be here holding you high above it all
but don’t let me fall

hello melaka. im back.

surprise why i came back early?
aku pun xtaw kenapa. :)

im in my room now.
sunyi. :(

im hungry.
ngaaaa.

oh ya. block dpn rumah aku kena tutup. h1n1. bkn mmu. tp utem. mmu bila nak ttp ni?penat ar dgn h1n1. x hbs2 lagi ke?

haa. holiday:

• g klcc tgk the proposal. best. a must see movie. haha
• wedding abg mimin.
• naik train sorg2 for the 1st time. (poyo ar aku)
• shopping dgn my mum
• pegi jalan tunku abd rahman. mcm biasa.
  
• pegi OU. just nak mkn seoul garden sahaja.

tu sahaja. bosannya. suppose nak mkn domino's tp domino's kat mid valley tutup. haih. krispy kreme x best. agagaga. :D abg x sempat mkn carl's junior sbb daging xde. ahah. next time la.

dah la. lupa dah nak cte ape. bye. :)
love love.

hello people. its holiday now. :)

im in kl now. in the hotel to be exact. with mummy n abg.

today is the first time im going to kl central using train from setiawangsa. alone. agagaga. kesian kan aku? baru 1st time. lol. thank god i didnt have to wait long to meet mummy. agaga.

my mission going to kl: shopping. :D

i need new clothes la. aku bwk pun ckit je. bkn salu dpt shopping dgn mummy. hehe.

i'll be coming home which is melaka on thursday. sob sob.
bile lagi nak sampai thursday ni? :D

i've read his blog. omg.
im so touched.
seriously.
:)

dah2. babai.
waiting for thursday. :)

remember.
u're the one who let me go.
u're the one who've been asking this.
and now u're telling me that u need someone.
that someone is me.
fuck off.
its over.
between me and u.
baru skrg kau ckp kau perlukan aku.

it was on saturday he asked me the question.
the question that he have been asking a lot when we're together.
for him, the question is to threatened me.
and on saturday i've made his wish come true.
he said he didnt mean to make it really happen.
its just
he wanted me to cry and beg him not letting me go.
fuck u.
pk aku desperate?
aku ade org lain yg lebih bagus dr kau.

so farewell 12 march 2008.
farewell apisya.
farewell to everything.
hope u can find someone else who can stand with ur attitude.

its ur lost. not mine.
i have plenty of things to think about.
im glad that im not with u anymore.
im sick of the way u treated me.
go find someone else.
im not for u.
im for someone else. :)