sunshine above my head

its been a while.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008 at 11:45 PM

attention.

saya sudah dpt lesen P!! :D

saya sungguh gembira. abis la keta rexton mak ku kaktok. keke. waaa. x sangka ba ku pat lesen ya. pagi tek nebes alu2 jak. sampe handbreak lupak nak diturun. malu eh. dah la dpn org len gk ya. org jpj ya gk pdh "handbreak2" ngan aku. aiyer. malu eh. tp xpa. saya sudah pass. :D yayay! dpt g jln2 k keta. saya mao g esplanade! waaa. saya suka laut. keke. org len mok pat lesen g clubbing. pa jak la g clubbing kat miri tok. mun kat KL tek x juak apa. adeh ha!

hey. i just came back from KL few days ago. ari ahad bok sampe. OMG. i got this one big fat patrick starfish which is bigger than my body. lelah ngembak nya blt eh. tgn sebelah megang nya sebelah gk ngan beg. ramey org nangga. keke. thanx uncle ali! nya kwn mak ku. suppose ya contoh k lucky draw for RNK night. skali nangga uncle ya brk ngan aku. i love that patrick! thanx thanx! i bought lotsa shirt. tp sluar jeans 2 igek jak. haha. ngek nak? ya la leka crk baju k amer,apis ngan mirul ya kat sungey wang ngan bukit bintang. baju daknya mok nok ssh dicrk. lelah ku discover sigek bangunan ya. x juak jumpa2. oh ya. i bought a pair of shoe too. kaler putih brdesign. vans. murah jer. salesboy kat kedey ya ensem ba. haha. lol. xpat lari juak kekenjaan ku ya. haha. we stay kat cititel. first room ada bath tub. kakya tuka bilit lain xda bath tub ba. dah la my shampoo ngan body shower trtggl kat the first room ya. lantak jak la. keke. nasib ada spare. haha. :D hmm. apa gk owh. mekorg g check up kat somewhere. uncle ali AJAK mekorg g. g jak la. my bro got something prob ngan body nya. spleen nya ada prob. ya la nya xpat kurus2 ya. ya la. mkn gk byk2. xmok excercise. degil glak. keke. so am i. i mean. i got prob too. tp x sama kdk my bro. tidak mao saya ckp apahal. arap2 x mkn serius la. :D apa gk aaa? im blurr. keke. ku beli baju itam ada gamba joker hang k apis, baju itam ada bear brick kaler ijo ngan mirul n baju putih ada bear brick kaler itam kat bahu baju ya. daknya ya ba. amer la. dipau nya aku. tulah kamu amer. nya mdh nak tuka ngan mirul. ku tnyk mirul tauk ka? nya mdh aok n mirul maok tuka. skali ku pdh pina pasal ya n nya pdh ngan mirul ya pina pdh mirul xtauk pa2. ketulahan men. kekeke. i bought jam odm k pina. nya pesan ba. keke. sigek patong k shay. k bday nya lak. n something special utk pina k bday nya lak. tggu jak la. haha.

tok nya the pinky star.

ini saya dan pinky. besa kan dia dr saya? :D

aritok dak bang edy menari poco2. bagelang pata pata. haha. pake RNK night ya. nya ngna pojie. haha. oo tedah dak duak ya. keke.

hmm. apa gk owh. rya ku ada cta ba. tp lupak dah. keke. biar jak la owh. haha.

alip ada msg ku marek. pdh sorry for everything nya plh kat aku. sumpah2 aku dlk ya. kamu sdh lama saya maapkan mohd. aliff. krn saya syg kamu. haha. ngek. nya pdh gya sbb nya tringat hal mekorg dlk. indu asa nak kelai ngan nya ya kowh. haha. indu asa nak dgr nya nyumpah aku. i miss those days. haha. really aie. ku ingat 9 mac 2007. mekorg men2 kawen ba. sbb mekorg nak jd kdk aiyeen ngan jerie. daknya kawen olok2 ba. kdk biak kecik ba. nang gla2 keja mek duak on 9 mac ya la. the craziest n the bestest day of our love relationship. kakya. no more kdk ya. i miss all of it. the way he talk to me. the way he laugh. the way he always call me b4 going to sleep or just msg me n ask me to call him just to say gud night n love u. oh i miss yew alip. dlk nya salu anta msg pjg2 ya. nok sweet talk ya. ku maseh simpan. ku maseh ingat the way i smile when i read it. the sweetest thing i've ever receive. at that time he was soo damn care about me. tkt ku curang apa indah. i didn't curang. never. walaupun nya lyn ku trok2. xda ku curang ngan nya. oh darling. y must we be apart with each other? u've promise me once that u won't leave me for any circumstance. now all ur sweet talk r just lies to me. but i still love baca semua sweet talk yg nya pnh anta kat aku. bcoz i miss those day. where we had lots of fun being together. the ups n downs we've been through. i'm trying to forget u now. i know u're trying to forget about me too. i can forget a lil bit about u now. but i can't forget all about u. too much memories ba. ssh ba itu. lalalala. better stop b4 i cry. haha.

hmm. busan la. apa mao buat owh.

hmm. sampai sini saja la keh?

babai!

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lolipop. let the sugar pop. lol.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008 at 9:25 PM

oww i'm bored. later this evening got coffee break at my mum's station. aww! there'll be food food n food. i want it! haha

eyy eyy. something embarassing happen this morning. mcm biasa ku bgn mandik then wear clothes la nak then g mkn ba. ngan uknel jailani ngan unkel jamal. time mkn tek sempat juak unkel jamal brcerita. i'm listening unkel! keke. nya bloya psl iraq,iran,tamadun islam, syiah,khulafa' ar-rasyidin. all the agama stuff la. nya cta sal sejarah la like that. org tua bloya. dgr jak la. keke. then i go to IMMS. still doesnt realise about the embarassment. go into the office then sit outside,talk to kiki. he nagg about failing the test. nya pdh kaki melekta kat break. something like that la. nya fail bukit. sama ngan amy rya. ngee. so wait for the instructor ngaja sorg mpuan. then its my turn. so ok. i drive. g road A rtok. today my driving is ok. xda mati enjin. alhamdulillah. so im happy about it. x mok knk mrh gk ba. keke. then g blaja nok lam IMMS ya. i got to drive myself! yay! aher nya. tp dlm ya jak la. keke. mlh nok bukit ya, s-parking n 3 poin turn. tkt nok s-parking ya eh. mala jak slh time angkat tgn kakya jaoh dr tiang. ssh ba mun jaoh dr tiang. n apa namanya tek. aaa time kat bukit ya. ku trover g kanan. hee. kakya ok dah. keke. malu eh. >.<>

i met cikgu faridah yesterday n cikgu apa namanya owh. sorry cikgu! lupak nama. konpius ba. keke. cikgu faridah my class teacher when i was in primary 6. also my BM teacher. nya best. keke. maman salu plente ngan nya. maman nang. keke. tp nya x kesah. lmk alu dah x jumpa nya eh. waaa. n the other teacher is my kindergarden teacher. aaww! i miss kindergarden. tadika la best. njoy. haha. mlh origami la nangga video la. best ada jak. ku pnh menari for a majlis. kira majlis anugerah cemerlang la. gya2 la. ku ngan zafira. oh ya. zafira. girl where have u been? lmk alu x jumpa anak ya. gne ndak upa nya nektok ka. maseh di KL ndak ka. aku xtauk pa2 gk sal nya. ngee. lost contact.

cuaca di luar amat panas sehingga buat mata saya menjadi sepet dan satu perasaan timbul iaitu mengantuk. haha. apaka. lol.

"fight for everything. the white people prefer people who fights not who treat themselves as a slave."

ya la antara kata2 unkel jamali tek. he's right. mun kita x kelai kita akan ditindas. mun kta aok aok ajak apa org pdh kta akan ditindas. mmg nya akan pk "oh nya tok jenis aok aok jak. leh la ku molen nya tok." something like that la. or maybe worst. huhu. utk maju kita knk brlawan. brsaing dgn org lain. so mun kta brlwn kta dpt tauk kemampuan kta n kemampuan daknya. kta dpt tauk nya ya dpt x lwn ngan kta. nya ya lebih pande brlwn dr kta ka. tp jgn la brkelai sampe brtumbok segal hal kecik alu la. ya lain udah ya. u know u know la org nektok. segal pen patah pun leh kelai brtumbok. sal mpuan apa gk. sanggup mlh gya. aiyer. mun menang pun the decision is on the girl ba. xkan nak mejal nya nak? so fight for your own good. yg dpt brk benefit ngan dikpun. ngee. remember folks

fight for yourself. do not be a slave :)

heu. marek adalah hari yg amat memenatkan bg tgn ku ini. knk nulis nok kupon ya. aiyo. byk ba. dah la ada knk repeat. sbb slh plh. aiyo. at last. hari ini diiystiharkan kerja itu sudah siap dan saya leh ilek kejap. muahahahhahaha! haha. apaka.

eh. dah la. ckp la. enuff la.

aiyo. sok blaja driving gk. boring boring. waaa. bila la ku dpt lesen tok! :)

i'm going to KL tomorrow. flight mlm. sampe ari ahad lak. keke.

babai all!

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about few days ago

Sunday, January 20, 2008 at 9:24 PM

i'm sick. my dream of getting asma has come true. huhu.
just break up with him. =( we broke up after we went to the mall. something happen. just a small matter. huhu. jln ngan amy, mirul,pina,dd, amer,mamal, him. not a great time. huhu.
amy getting a jpj test. hope u get the licence soon. huhu.
alin's dad pass away the other day. on friday 18/1/2007. innalillah wa innalilahirojiun. she lost her father at a young age. fate is in god's hand. i wish i could exchange with his father. huhu.
i cant remember anymore what i wanted to write. haven't eat yet. huhu.

i guess this is the shortest blog i've ever made. so long!

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i'm sorry :(

at 8:47 PM

i'm sorry my baby love i'm sorry.

my dearest apis,
i'm soo damn sorry for wasting ur time loving me. i'm so sorry. i've made u cry. i'm sorry. how i wish i didn't do this to u. oh baby i'm so sorry. kejap jak kta kan? x sampe sebulan. i know u wish we could last longer than that. but i'm sorry that i've had to called it off. it's not ur fault. it's my fault. i'm the bad one. not u. tp kmk x curang aaa. xda alu kmk curang. ska ngan julz pun xda aie. mekorg kwn jak. jgn slh paham. mirul mesti mrh ngan kmk kan? i know. mmg nya mrh ngan kmk sbb pts gya jak. reasons pun x la btol glak. but hey. it's my decision. i've got to do what i;ve got to do. oh darling. knk la kmk knk mlh ktk kdk tok. u're too good for me dear. too good for this lil devil. i'm not for u. crk la princess ktk yg lebih sesuai dr kmk. i'm not the one. kmk x berhak dpt ktk. ktk angel. kmk devil. two different world. i know i wont get to find another men like u. u're irreplaceable. u're the best. i do appreciate u but it's not fair for me to keep it. u shud be with someone else. not me. mayb someday we'll be back together again. mayb. insyaallah. kwn mek smua pdh girl y r u doing this to him. he love u soo damn much. it's not easy to get someone like him. y u let him go? i do this for him babes. not for me. i'm used to be with a bad boy. with angel like that i'll be a bad girl. i'll ruin him babes. i don't want to do that. he's just too special for me. someone that other girl shud be taking care of. dearie apis. thank god kita maseh kwn. we'll be best frens. u can share with me anything. if u got prob just tell me. i'll be there for u. i'll help u. oh our memories. i'll keep it inside my heart like i do with alip. i'll always remembered the memories. i'm sorry i cant be the best for u. i wish i could. i guess this is the end. of our love relationship. i'll always cherish u.

in loving memory
apiSya
start: 28/12/2007
end: 20/1/2008

i must not continue writting about it. i'll shower with tears if i do.

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migle or mean girl?

Wednesday, January 16, 2008 at 6:35 PM

owww yeah. jingle bell jingle bell. jingle all the way. haha. apaka. lol. maka christmas dah lepas dah. slh lagu ku tok. jap. hmm. camne lagu taun baru cina owh. keke. x pass ba bhs cina tok. biar la.
gong xi fa cai. angpau lai lai. =D

masa cepat alu brlalu. x lmk gk dah nak taun baru cina. wow. cepat na juak kau ya sa. cne kau nak pegi? time ku gk sklh ko brk ku rasa lmk alu jak kau nak brlalu. keke. lol.

hey. i'm getting better than yesterday. caken mena. lemah alu jak bdn ku. rtok xda ku muntah. mlm marek ada. lkk mkn. keke. biar la =D

hmm. blaja driving rtok. knk marah bini said. x la nya neriak kat aku. keke. nya just mrh camya2 jak. nya x ska pdh brulang2 kali ba. psl apa tek owh. psl S-parking. ku x angkat tgn ya. keke. lupak ba. lagging juak time ya. keke. xpa la. ngee. esok blaja gk ba. ya rabbi. lemah nak bgn pagi eh. boring ba. everyday gk ya. kecuali sabtu n ahad. keke.

i realise something this morning. kita x leh biarkan perasaan menguasai bdn. apaka. kita xleh pdh kita lemah. instead kita knk ingat kan dirik kta supaya be strong. life is rough n nothing in this world is easy to deal with. ngee. ngee. dah lmk ayat ya sbnrnya. cuma bok diingat. keke. lol. phl ku tok? keke.

mlm tek ku msg ngan dzul n apis. ada la dimsg mek duak dzul. no need for u all to know. hal mek duak ba. keke. time gk sakit pun sempat juak nak brmsg aku tok. keke. mlm time ku tdo bb msg tnyk x g nangga lightning penguin jamming. i don't think im going la babe. kat letra ba. my mum surely x srh g. kan best mun ku pat g. bkn salu pat nangga org jamm. keke. oh ya. alip call ku mlm tek. xla mlm glak. 1.30+ in the morning. aher alu call. apahal ka nya ya. hmm. jap jak mek duak. indu ngan sora nya eh. =P aaaa. dedeng ada anta testi ngan aku. bok nak anta. saja nak brcomment ka saja nak ngeso ada grk? calie. haha.

hey. i wanna relax lok. can?

babai.

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hit me with something please

Tuesday, January 15, 2008 at 8:52 PM

i'm sick today. caka eh. just puke this morning. in my mum's office. sorry mum. xpat nak kluar dr cya ba. keke. my mee kolok special kluar blt tek. eeww~! yuck! in mee form gk ya. eeewww~! then i have to clean it up again. urrgghh! while cleaning i puke again. haha. knk la mesti rtok ku daktok. heu. i think i'm getting gastric. perut kosong. tp x mok mkn. mlm tadik mala brbunyi. mkn burger kit. tp x abis. my stomach dont want to receive it anymore. hwaaa! phl ku jd kdk tok owh? lkk mkn ubat axcel diphenhydramine ya alu kdk tok la aku. isk. i hate that medicine! arip blame me sbb nya muntah juak. oi it's not my fault la kau muntah. kau ya demam ngeng. haha. dr rya dah dmm kau ya. bila gk nak bait?

oh well. what i wanted to write today owh. hmm. marek n marek2 g pustaka. jumpa apis, amer,bb n mirul. mirul x g sklh ri isnin ya. ngee. sian mirul ari isnin ya. nya sorg jak x ngan kapel nya. hmm. ptg ya kelai dak duak. mala jak. what happen to both of u aaa? hmm. marek jumpa bb n amer n apis. apis was soo damn late. boring alu jak nunggu. i'm so mad at him. nya sampe b4 kol 4. nasib sampe b4 kol 4. mun after 4 blt dah ku. ngee. so majuk la ku tek. x la lmk glak. keke. then we're talking. bla bla bla. kol 5.30 lebih gya blt ku. haha. apis aher alu blt. ya la ktk. degl. DEGIL. len kali boh dakya eh. he walks from pustaka to mall. neman amer ambik gaji. then from mall to kedey lorenzo. jaoh ya ba! mlm gk ya. heee. knk colek bok tauk nya ya. hee. ada org pustaka ya. security nya la. nang gago la org ya. mekorg ilek kat tangga tepi kiosk pustaka ya. nok tmpt org jual mknn ya ba. nok blakang nya ya ada gallery ya. ngee. daknya suppose to go back ba. dah abis syif. sengaja lmbt2. paloi. bencik ku nangga dak duak ya. ri isnin gya juak. eksen dak duak ya. bakti la asa tek. cali!!

i'm not eating lunch. mok mkn tp surely i'll vomit again later. heee.

oh ya. bb bought a shirt for me. from KL. awww~! thanks b! ssh2 jak kau beli k aku. the shirt is blue in colour. yay! biru. blue!

ku bok lkk edit gamba tek. too much pix ba in my pc tok. my pic, other people's pic. byk ada jak folder aie. lam folder ada folder lain gk. ngee. camne owh. ngee. biar la. keke.

dak xsan ngan arip mdh abg ku lost. haha. oo tedah. nya nang kdk lost juak ba. ne ndak. lol. =D

hey. i'm tired. asa nak muntah gk. sial mena. i'll blog again later!

see u again!

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