happy 2nd anniversary

Thursday, July 28, 2011 at 11:25 PM

happy 2nd Anniversary <3!

it's our day!

yeah. we're officially 2 years now.
how time flies. :)
this is the longest relationship i have been to and i hope it will last long
till death do us apart :)

i still can remember the day when he proposed to me on July 29, 2009
and i still remember how our friends tease us when they can sense that he likes me and the way they freaked out when we coupled.

i still remember that day we met at ps, all of us ate together. he came late with dayat. we didnt talk to each other (because im mad at him for going away during chat the night before).
after lunch dila was walking with me, going back to our house
and she said that he likes me.
i already knew and i like him too, but i keep it a secret.
seriously nobody knew about it.
when she tease me with him all i can do is laugh and said "no way, mane ade, macam mana u taw?" ahahaha :)

we always met at abraar. having shisha with friends. but none of them knew that we chat every night since the day i found him at fb. he told me he acted like he doesnt know me to start a conversation.
we exchange song by zee avi , kantoi since it was a hit song at that time. he already knew and he already have that song but still he asked it from me. :)

on 29 july 2009, i was in my room when i get a phone call from him. he asked me to go for a late night dinner with friends. i remeber saying " xnak la, diorg xde ajak i pun" then suddenly a message comes in from kay saying about the late night dinner. then i said ok and he picked me up, with dayat in his compact red car. all of us, in separate cars, went to K9. we sit next to each other and he's being quiet all the time because our friends teased him. i remember he wears a blue shirt at that time with "recycle girls". then after dinner we went back and all of them had planned that me and him in one car and all of them in the other car. still they want to tease us. i remember dayat do not know to follow whom because he asked him to stay with us and others asked him to follow them. eventually dayat followed them since they asked dayat to give us privacy. during the 10 or 5 minutes journey back home, we had a small talk. he's being shy and all. later that night we chat for a while and he proposed to me. :)

now, here we are. 2 years after he proposed.
still loving each other.
we've been through a lot and it does not break us apart
i love u Syuja'uddin Shahruddin
i really do and i do love you very much. :)

2011

Friday, January 7, 2011 at 12:39 AM
hey. its 2011 now. this is my first post. ahah. celebrated new year watching meet the parents, watching fireworks. huhu.

today is not a good day for me. why?
1. my baby rabbit died. i dont know why. i wake up this morning and i saw him, not moving when i touch him. this is the second time my rabbit died. only left baby yoko. :(

2. me boyfie not feeling so good. we went to the clinic and the doctor said he might get minor appendix. haih. pity baby because he suffer so much. hopefully he'll get better.

i wonder what happen next. haih.

im hungreeehhh. there's no snack in this house. should have bought some yesterday. haih.
and i dont know what to do. fb? done. twitter? done. tumblr? done. assignment? done. news? done. movie? done. now what should i do?

i think i should sleep. nite people.
Friday, October 8, 2010 at 6:56 AM
hey. im bored. hari ni hujan satu hari. berhenti kejap then hujan lagi. mcm mana? tp tetap keluar tadi dlm keadaan sejuk dan sakit perut akibat period. haih.

asal malam je aku xtaw nak buat ape. seriously. aku on9. bukak fb bukak tumblr bukak je pape yg boleh aku tgk. then aku dah xtaw nak buat ape. aku nak keluar tp x dpt. kalau keluar pun nak pergi mana?

boyfriend tgh tgk kwn die perform. xtaw kat mana. so xde sapa nak layan saya ni. :( battery phone die dah nak hbs. kalau call or text kang tup2 padam susah plak. haih.

tolonglah. aku nak buat ape ni?
BOSAN TAHU TAK?

aku mcm nak bake cupcake tp. haih. xde mixer. mixer mak aku kt aunty aku. tp aku nak bake jugak. mcm mana? aku nak bake color2 punya. nak buat color rainbow. xpun color yg lawa2. then buat topping best2. ahah. angan2 betul la aku nih.

oh ya. next week aku dah nak kembali ke melaka. kembali ke sekolah. kali ini untuk degree. macam mane la degree aku nanti. i wonder. aku ambik Degree in International Business.

aku rasa kan. kalau aku nak merapu ke ape baru aku pergi blog aku nih. kalau x aku x log in. tumblr plak kalau aku rajin aku upload gmbr ke like gmbr org ke or reblog dr org. facebook plak aku on9 tp lepas tu aku biar. dah xde benda interesting lagi ke aku nak buat?

dah la dah la. nanti kalau ade pape aku nak tulis aku update lagi ye? (tgk ?)

Hey hey

Wednesday, October 6, 2010 at 6:18 AM
hey. dah lama aku x merapu kt sini.

aku xtaw knp setiap kali aku nak tulis je kt blog ni. the moment aku tekan je satu huruf then aku dah xtauk nak ckp pape. padahal kalau aku x menghadap ni aku ade je nak ckp haih.

baiklah. kalau korg baca ni dan korg kenal aku ade no. phone fb ape smua contact me.

aku xtaw dah mcm mana nak ckp. aku simpan. tp lama2 x tahan la jugak kan nak simpan. kalau aku ckp pun aku taw aku kan kalah jugak. bknlah aku ni pengalah tp aku taw selagi aku melawan selagi itu org akan lawan aku dan kalau xde sape nak mengalah sampai bile nak mcm tu kan? aku kdg2 kecil hati kdg2 mrh, kdg2 merajuk. smua ade sbb. bkn saje2 nak buat camtu buat org meluat kat aku. ade sbb taw. aku ni pendiam. aku x byk ckp. only dgn org yg aku rapat dan aku knl. even kalau aku lepak pun aku diam. kdg2 ku brsuara. sbb aku suka. aku suka dgr kwn2 aku brckp then aku akan gelak dgn ape saja lawak diorg. aku diam bukan aku x bagi perhatian. aku jarang text dgn kawan aku. sbb aku dah biasa mcm tu. tp aku rindu nak lepak nak ajak mkn aku msg. kdg2 aku simpan dan slalu ckp dlm hati " eh apa khabar A? apa khabar B?". tipula aku x rindu kawan aku. sungguh tipu. mungkin org ingat aku x care kt kwn aku. tp aku care actually. cuma aku ni x menampakkan sgt. aku xtaw knp aku mcm ni. tp ni la aku kan. aku ni byk berfikir. aku kalau org bagi aku satu benda aku boleh imagine sampai org x imagine. aku mmg suke fikir lebih. aku xleh stop. dah terbiasa.

aku kan. sbnrnya xtaw ape aku nak sampaikan. tp baca je lah ye.

ni je. bye. :D
Saturday, September 18, 2010 at 9:14 AM

rindu masa dulu.

:)

masa berlalu dgn cepat
dah x mcm dulu.

kenapa mesti aku?

byk yg hendak dikata
mungkin lebih baik disimpan sahaja.

malam

Friday, July 23, 2010 at 7:22 AM
hai. rasa2 nya dah lama dah tak update kat sini. kdg2 aku malas. kdg2 aku lupa. ada cerita tp x terkata.

byk dah yg trjadi. byk yg dah berubah. kadang2 aku terdiam kalau teringat balik. haih. betapa cepatnya masa berlalu dan aku x sangka smua ini di depan aku. kenapa dan kenapa? tetap jadi persoalan. bolehkah kembali ke masa dahulu?

byk yg ingin aku huraikan. tp x terkeluar. x tahu mengapa. biarkan saja. dalam hati tiada siapa pun akan tahu.

runsing dengan smua. aku mahu lari. lari ke tpt yg x pnh aku pergi. asalkan dpt aku berehat seketika.

seribu kata. terkunci semuanya.

late night. oh wait. early morning craps

Sunday, April 18, 2010 at 11:18 AM
hello sunshine.
its been a while since i update u right. so today is the time for me to update with u ok?

i've lots of stuff in my mind right now. assignments, muet, practical, searching for new house, final exam and more. yes. i'm a student. that is why im thinking about all these stuff. less than one month i will fly back to my hometown which is miri and i wont be back until october (maybe). because i have to do my practical at petronas lutong. yeah. i'll be leaving john lennon and my friends here in melaka. dont worry. i'll be back for my presentation and insyaallah for my degree. but i have to find a new house first. dammit. -.-

i wish i can go anywhere but not here. perhaps somewhere far away. i just need to go somewhere. maybe to the sea or anywhere la. i need to rest my mind. my mind is full of my thoughts and i cant get it out of my head.

this is not for john lennon. but i know he knows who am i talking about:
i wish u could accept me for who i am. i dont expect you to accept me immediately but u just dont want to try to know more about me. indeed i made a mistake. i know it is big and i could not say anything to make it right. im speechless. i dont know when will u accept me but i'll be waiting for it. i wish i have a time machine and rewind the time and erase that thing that has happened. i know it is hard for u to forgive and forget. it is hard for me too.
oh bloggie. what should i do?

i want to be beautiful. sometimes i looked at myself in the mirror and say wtf am i wearing? im jealous when i see people dress up nicely and i wish i could do the same. im the one who always paired my jeans with some tshirt that i bought at fos for few ringgit. because im not used to wear dress, skirt or any fashionable clothes. u see. i have only one black dress that i have used at kay's bday party, going out with john lennon and other occasion. i have never wear leggings. i have only one short and most of my clothes are tshirts. seriously. when i open my closet i just dont know what to wear. yes. i know the solution is to go buy new clothes but i dont know how to pair it with this or that. yes. i do not know much about fashion. -.-"

bloggie. i cant sleep and i dont feel like sleeping. what should i do bloggie?

i guess i have to force myself to sleep. i think this is enough for today.
goodnight people.
:)