hey. dah lama aku x merapu kt sini.
aku xtaw knp setiap kali aku nak tulis je kt blog ni. the moment aku tekan je satu huruf then aku dah xtauk nak ckp pape. padahal kalau aku x menghadap ni aku ade je nak ckp haih.
baiklah. kalau korg baca ni dan korg kenal aku ade no. phone fb ape smua contact me.
aku xtaw dah mcm mana nak ckp. aku simpan. tp lama2 x tahan la jugak kan nak simpan. kalau aku ckp pun aku taw aku kan kalah jugak. bknlah aku ni pengalah tp aku taw selagi aku melawan selagi itu org akan lawan aku dan kalau xde sape nak mengalah sampai bile nak mcm tu kan? aku kdg2 kecil hati kdg2 mrh, kdg2 merajuk. smua ade sbb. bkn saje2 nak buat camtu buat org meluat kat aku. ade sbb taw. aku ni pendiam. aku x byk ckp. only dgn org yg aku rapat dan aku knl. even kalau aku lepak pun aku diam. kdg2 ku brsuara. sbb aku suka. aku suka dgr kwn2 aku brckp then aku akan gelak dgn ape saja lawak diorg. aku diam bukan aku x bagi perhatian. aku jarang text dgn kawan aku. sbb aku dah biasa mcm tu. tp aku rindu nak lepak nak ajak mkn aku msg. kdg2 aku simpan dan slalu ckp dlm hati " eh apa khabar A? apa khabar B?". tipula aku x rindu kawan aku. sungguh tipu. mungkin org ingat aku x care kt kwn aku. tp aku care actually. cuma aku ni x menampakkan sgt. aku xtaw knp aku mcm ni. tp ni la aku kan. aku ni byk berfikir. aku kalau org bagi aku satu benda aku boleh imagine sampai org x imagine. aku mmg suke fikir lebih. aku xleh stop. dah terbiasa.
aku kan. sbnrnya xtaw ape aku nak sampaikan. tp baca je lah ye.
ni je. bye. :D
Saturday, September 18, 2010
at
9:14 AM
rindu masa dulu.
:)
masa berlalu dgn cepat
dah x mcm dulu.
kenapa mesti aku?
byk yg hendak dikata
mungkin lebih baik disimpan sahaja.
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malam
Friday, July 23, 2010
at
7:22 AM
hai. rasa2 nya dah lama dah tak update kat sini. kdg2 aku malas. kdg2 aku lupa. ada cerita tp x terkata.
byk dah yg trjadi. byk yg dah berubah. kadang2 aku terdiam kalau teringat balik. haih. betapa cepatnya masa berlalu dan aku x sangka smua ini di depan aku. kenapa dan kenapa? tetap jadi persoalan. bolehkah kembali ke masa dahulu?
byk yg ingin aku huraikan. tp x terkeluar. x tahu mengapa. biarkan saja. dalam hati tiada siapa pun akan tahu.
runsing dengan smua. aku mahu lari. lari ke tpt yg x pnh aku pergi. asalkan dpt aku berehat seketika.
seribu kata. terkunci semuanya.
byk dah yg trjadi. byk yg dah berubah. kadang2 aku terdiam kalau teringat balik. haih. betapa cepatnya masa berlalu dan aku x sangka smua ini di depan aku. kenapa dan kenapa? tetap jadi persoalan. bolehkah kembali ke masa dahulu?
byk yg ingin aku huraikan. tp x terkeluar. x tahu mengapa. biarkan saja. dalam hati tiada siapa pun akan tahu.
runsing dengan smua. aku mahu lari. lari ke tpt yg x pnh aku pergi. asalkan dpt aku berehat seketika.
seribu kata. terkunci semuanya.
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late night. oh wait. early morning craps
Sunday, April 18, 2010
at
11:18 AM
hello sunshine.
its been a while since i update u right. so today is the time for me to update with u ok?
i've lots of stuff in my mind right now. assignments, muet, practical, searching for new house, final exam and more. yes. i'm a student. that is why im thinking about all these stuff. less than one month i will fly back to my hometown which is miri and i wont be back until october (maybe). because i have to do my practical at petronas lutong. yeah. i'll be leaving john lennon and my friends here in melaka. dont worry. i'll be back for my presentation and insyaallah for my degree. but i have to find a new house first. dammit. -.-
i wish i can go anywhere but not here. perhaps somewhere far away. i just need to go somewhere. maybe to the sea or anywhere la. i need to rest my mind. my mind is full of my thoughts and i cant get it out of my head.
this is not for john lennon. but i know he knows who am i talking about:
i wish u could accept me for who i am. i dont expect you to accept me immediately but u just dont want to try to know more about me. indeed i made a mistake. i know it is big and i could not say anything to make it right. im speechless. i dont know when will u accept me but i'll be waiting for it. i wish i have a time machine and rewind the time and erase that thing that has happened. i know it is hard for u to forgive and forget. it is hard for me too.
oh bloggie. what should i do?
i want to be beautiful. sometimes i looked at myself in the mirror and say wtf am i wearing? im jealous when i see people dress up nicely and i wish i could do the same. im the one who always paired my jeans with some tshirt that i bought at fos for few ringgit. because im not used to wear dress, skirt or any fashionable clothes. u see. i have only one black dress that i have used at kay's bday party, going out with john lennon and other occasion. i have never wear leggings. i have only one short and most of my clothes are tshirts. seriously. when i open my closet i just dont know what to wear. yes. i know the solution is to go buy new clothes but i dont know how to pair it with this or that. yes. i do not know much about fashion. -.-"
bloggie. i cant sleep and i dont feel like sleeping. what should i do bloggie?
i guess i have to force myself to sleep. i think this is enough for today.
goodnight people.
:)
its been a while since i update u right. so today is the time for me to update with u ok?
i've lots of stuff in my mind right now. assignments, muet, practical, searching for new house, final exam and more. yes. i'm a student. that is why im thinking about all these stuff. less than one month i will fly back to my hometown which is miri and i wont be back until october (maybe). because i have to do my practical at petronas lutong. yeah. i'll be leaving john lennon and my friends here in melaka. dont worry. i'll be back for my presentation and insyaallah for my degree. but i have to find a new house first. dammit. -.-
i wish i can go anywhere but not here. perhaps somewhere far away. i just need to go somewhere. maybe to the sea or anywhere la. i need to rest my mind. my mind is full of my thoughts and i cant get it out of my head.
this is not for john lennon. but i know he knows who am i talking about:
i wish u could accept me for who i am. i dont expect you to accept me immediately but u just dont want to try to know more about me. indeed i made a mistake. i know it is big and i could not say anything to make it right. im speechless. i dont know when will u accept me but i'll be waiting for it. i wish i have a time machine and rewind the time and erase that thing that has happened. i know it is hard for u to forgive and forget. it is hard for me too.
oh bloggie. what should i do?
i want to be beautiful. sometimes i looked at myself in the mirror and say wtf am i wearing? im jealous when i see people dress up nicely and i wish i could do the same. im the one who always paired my jeans with some tshirt that i bought at fos for few ringgit. because im not used to wear dress, skirt or any fashionable clothes. u see. i have only one black dress that i have used at kay's bday party, going out with john lennon and other occasion. i have never wear leggings. i have only one short and most of my clothes are tshirts. seriously. when i open my closet i just dont know what to wear. yes. i know the solution is to go buy new clothes but i dont know how to pair it with this or that. yes. i do not know much about fashion. -.-"
bloggie. i cant sleep and i dont feel like sleeping. what should i do bloggie?
i guess i have to force myself to sleep. i think this is enough for today.
goodnight people.
:)
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Thursday, March 25, 2010
at
9:13 AM
masihkah aku yang kau puja
bila smua nya gundah gulana?
masihkah aku yg ada di hati
bila smuanya tidak seperti dulu lagi?
masihkah kau dapat lihat
dimana kita di masa akan datang?
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Saturday, March 20, 2010
at
9:29 AM
i know im not beautiful
i know im not fun to be with
i can be quiet
i can be loud
u'll never know when.
say im emotional
yes, i can be emotional
sometimes when im not okay i'll laugh
i'll give u my fake smile while my heart is crushing down inside
u may say anything about me
but u'll never know what my heart says.
screw you. u just dont know anything about me. because u never learn to understand me. since the beginning.
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hanyalah seorg perapu
Friday, February 19, 2010
at
4:36 AM
bintang tidak lagi bersinar
seperti yg pernah aku lihat
bulan itu tidak lagi mengeluarkan cahaya
gelap gelita
aku berjalan di merata tempat
untuk mencari jawapan
persoalan itu tidak lagi hilang
seperti yg aku mahukan
mungkin bukan aku sang matahari mu
mungkin bukan aku bulan dan bintang mu
mungkin bukan aku yg boleh menceriakan hari hari mu
dan mungkin juga akulah yg terakhir dalam fikiran mu
mulut terkunci
hati terluka
jiwa meronta
tiada siapa yang akan tahu mengapa
seperti yg pernah aku lihat
bulan itu tidak lagi mengeluarkan cahaya
gelap gelita
aku berjalan di merata tempat
untuk mencari jawapan
persoalan itu tidak lagi hilang
seperti yg aku mahukan
mungkin bukan aku sang matahari mu
mungkin bukan aku bulan dan bintang mu
mungkin bukan aku yg boleh menceriakan hari hari mu
dan mungkin juga akulah yg terakhir dalam fikiran mu
mulut terkunci
hati terluka
jiwa meronta
tiada siapa yang akan tahu mengapa
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