sunshine above my head

love isn't just about money and feelings. its about how partners deal with any problems during the relationship.

love is not love by just giving money for the other half. i mean. if sharing it still ok. if the other half would not do the same as u did then u should understand if u have been in that relationship for a long time. i have been in that situation and it sucks. once they have all their wants then it is time to say good bye. in relationship it should be equal. not less. sometimes if the other half give more that he/she is expecting something that u might not like. u know what i mean right? it is ur choice to stay and suffer or leave. u should realize by now. do not blind ur eyes.

feelings. sometimes it can fade away. i did encounter this before when he said the "im bored with this relationship". its my fault to stay and trust that we can make it right. but it is his mistake to say that and leave. and now who is finding whom? i stiil wonder what did i do until they say that. i did everything that they want including things that i did not want to do. but still they leave. so men. tell us women what do u want in a relationship that would not bores u.

p/s: if u still cant realize i dont know what to say

:)

i'm homesick. seriously. im utterly dismay. i did a lot of things last night to wash away that feelings. from doing word search, reading cecelia ahern's thanks for the memories(thank god i didnt read a dictionary), making a bookmark, and drawing. i drew my own house and my room (i would draw the entire part of the house if i wasn't sleepy). exactly the way it is. home. lots of memories. oh god. im so wanna be at home in miri. why do i have to wait until raya to come home? :(

oh hey. today is marlyanna's birthday. happy birthday ! hope u have a great birthday today. with lots of cakes and present. mesti best kan? bila la bday aku nak sampai. have fun on ur day today ok?when will we meet up? im sooo damn missing u. cant wait to meet u. :(

i need a new clothes. new shirt new jeans. and also new bags. ngaaaaa.

mum. i want lomoholga please.

im bored. i just bought new cable for the 3rd time. grrr. dah la rm10 for 4 metre. i bought a new one because its useless. can u imagine i have to hold that damn wire to have a connection. ngaaa. dgn ep punya interenet yg slow.

i've try sudoku yesterday. i know i know. lame kan aku?baru nak try padahal benda tu dah lama. i've never try sudoku because im not interested. mumtaz bring a book of sudoku to class yesterday. i tried it when we done with the discussion. haha. its ok i guess. i mean sudoku.

dah la. off to bed. class at 6pm. damnit.

i want someone who wont be mad at me when i wake up b4 12 and after 12
i want someone who wont be mad at me when i go out late
i want someone who wont be mad at me when i sleep late and make me sleep b4 12
i want someone who wont be mad at me when i do not top up my credit and say "jgn kedekut sgt"
i want someone who wont ask me to say sumpah lillah demi allah, sumpah depan quran just to make sure that what i say is true.
i want someone who when he doesn't have credit and i dont have to send message to him everytime or after 2 or 3 hours from the latest msg.
i want someone who wont be mad at me with a simple matter.
i want someone who wont be mad at me because he thinks that i've change
i want someone who wont be mad at me when im mad at him
i want someone who wont be mad at me when im studying and did not concentrate with him
i want someone who wont accuse me of having an affair when i'm late replying his msg
i want someone who know how to treat me well.
i want someone who respect me.

care to be one?

oh. there is more than this but i think this is enough. what u see, what u've read is what i've been through and what i've done for him. and yet he did not appreciate me. i have been patient enough for a long time. really really patient. now im mad, real mad joe jackson.

i cant wait to buy my baby lomoholga. come to mama. haha. lol. im really seriously truly madly deeply insanely in love with that camera. please. dont buy it first. let me buy it then u can buy it. ok? deal or no deal?

urgh! i hate ep's internet connection. i cant online like i used to. haih. nak buat streamyx mcm alang2. nak beli broadband mcm malas. ye ye. i know. byk songeh kan? haha.

wuu. nak seoul garden. :(

gosh im nervous. seriously. this sem is killing me. ngaa. i just sit for mid term exam last friday. that is the first one and not the last one. i got 2 more at the end of this month. grr. eventhough it is just a mid term but hey it will have an effect on the final result. sob sob. i hate this sem. a lot. i have to present in front of the class. ngaaa. and lots lots of work to do. few more weeks then it will be midterm break. then final. oh god. im so not prepared yet. ngaa. kenapa masa cepat je berlalu? cant we relax a bit?

dah. nak mkn. babai.

p/s: td tgk ade org kusyuk tgk anugerah planet muzik kat abrar. haha.

hello. selamat pagi ahad. agagaga.

aku x phm kenape kalau aku bukak je blogger idea xde. kalau dah tutup ade plak. ngaaa. *trnganga besar dgn muka yg retard*

tgh dgr lagu obsessed. aku dgr mcm kelakar. i mean. they fight through song. its eminem's fault. (kot. xtaw cte yg sebetul2nya. mane la taw mc ade bgtaw pape ke tu yg eminem mcm tu). haha. biar la. asal lagu sedap. weee.

kwn aku dah kapel dgn org yg die suke. oh best nya. i know he will treat her well. seriously. lol. jaga la nya mena2. dah dkt ya boh nak brolah. kau x jaga nya siap kau. haha. mcm la aku tok kuar. adoh.

aku selalu ingat hari ni hari ahad. tp hari sabtu. tp xpela. dah bertukar hari ahad dah.

eh. hari ni anniversary. emm. happy anniversary b. haha. aku rindu masa dulu. seriously.

kenapa malam2 aku masih dpt cium bau asap? *buat muka suffocated*

hamster aku x gemok2 lagi. dah la kuat tdo. kesian xde partner. nak beli partner utk die tkt mati lagi. haih. mat. cepat la membesar ye. boleh buli. :D

kay ckp die x phm ape yg aku post hari tu (xtaw post yg mane). haha. nang merepek pun post ya kay. xtauk mok mdh apa. ya men entam jak. :D

aku rindu nak main uno. (tgh tgk uno stacko skrg tp xde org nak main)

aku nak balik please. :( cuti nak buat ape? waaaaa. :((

plan utk esok:
*tgh pk nak buat ape esok*
















*masih pk lagi*



























emm. ok la. babai. :)

tell billie for me. bye bye black bird.