sunshine above my head

hello people. internet kat ep amat slow. urghhh! nak dwnld notes ke lagu ke ape2 pun susah. haih. bosan giler. mcm nak beli broadband ke pasang streamyx ke. haa. adoiii.

nabila dah kt melaka. yay! tp yana x ikut. sbb ade kelas. sob sob. tp awal bln 7 die dtg. double yay!

kat rumah agak bosan. sbb panas. kipas yg mira beli pun x ckp. haih. dah la bilik xde curtain lagi. haha. :D

drag me to hell dah keluar kat gsc n mbo n mane2 lagi la. nak tgk. mcm best je. haha. harap2 x tkt aa nak balik. nabila ckp yana sampai tkt nak mention nama demon tu. haha. apa brg ni yana. haha. :D

oh ya. masa aku tgh dwnld notes yg dah brapa kali aku dwnld x leh bkk gak, mira ade ckp pasal wife najib guna bomoh. ade video. aku tgk ckit je. ye la. internet slow gile. mcm mane nak tgk. haih. lepas tu aku tgk kat mane tah pasal blog azwan ali kena saman. aku pun tgk la nape diorg nak saman. skali tgk. haih. mmg ptt pun kena saman. xpun band je die dr blogspot ke ape2 blog. ayat die xleh blah. x mcm dah tua. ingat masih mude ke? ye la. mmg la blog tu hak sendiri tp ayat xyah la nak lebih2. nak kutuk pun btl2 la ckit. taw la mulut tu laser tp control la. x sdr ke dah tua? masih nak panggil org len anjing. kalau perfect xpe gak. ni sendiri pun kutuk org. kutuk biase2 xpe ar ni sampai panggil org len anjing kurap la ni la. haih. dah la tu. nama je artis. ptt je contoh ke ape ni x. baik xyah jd artis. satu soalan. kenapa raja petra kena sampai masuk court kenapa azwan ali x? haa.

melaka sgt panas. haih. hujan pun xde. adoiii.

aku nak cupcake. yan ckp die nak cupcake aku pun mcm nak cupcake. tp tggu la. haha. xtaw nak design ape. rasa mcm nak design lembu lagi tp mcm kesian plak kat kakak tu kena buat lembu je. haha. :D

i want coconut shake. dr dulu dah. tp x dpt2. haih.

i dont know what to do during mid term break. cheee. haha. baru nak 1 week kat melaka dah pk pasal cuti. haha. abg aku xnak balik. dan possibility aku x blk pun tinggi. tp aku nak balik. xtaw ar. haih. kalau aku balik aku nak g mana n buat apa? give me some idea.

go baby go baby go. dont upset the rhythm. :D

i miss marly and sya. its been a long time we didnt meet each other. padahal kat melaka je. tp jauh. sob sob. wish uitm is near to mmu boleh hang out slalu. when will we meet again? i wish we have one day, the whole day to spend with each other. :(

bye. :)

p/s: leaving

im bored. haih. baru 1 hari kat melaka dah bosan. haha. lol. i miss miri. i wish i wont have to come back to melaka. haih. lol. :D but i have to continue this diploma programme. urgghhh! bila la nak hbs.

it feels different here in my room. watching this house without yana n nabila. oh ya. we got new housemates. fira,mira n intan. all take foundation but different course. welcome to ep yg panas. haha. :D fira is the only new girl with the age of 18 years old. she's from kl. mira n intan both 20 years old. mira from jb n intan from perak. fira just like nabila. ada kembar. hehe.

seriously. without the loud noise from yana's speaker n watching her on9 infront of me makes me sad. yana dah jauh dah. xde org nk buli aku mcm yana. xde dgr die panggil shapple dgn muka2 skali. haha. xde tgk nabila pakai baju kurung nak g kelas. xde tgk nabila pakai baju kelawar keluar dr bilik. xde tgk nabila lepak kat bilik ktorg then borak2 dgn mira. haih. y u have to go to cyber? kan best kalau dpt stay kat melaka je. haih.

i dont know what to do. im bored. there's nothing i wanna do. haih. tell me what should i do.

haih. im done. saja jak nak tulis sbb bosan. waaaa. :(

p/s: please. if u cant write well dont write in that language.

exam finished at 10 something i guess. eat n went home to pack. rushed to the management to send the key n card then run to the taxi station. thank god we arrive at the mc and the bus still there. arrived in kl 2 something then go to cititel. mummy datang kl. then g mkn as usual at chicken rice shop. jalan2. then went back and sleep. haha. lol.

saturday. going to jalan tunku abd rahman. grrr. the one and only place that im so lazy to go. but what i've got to do. kena beli kain baju raya. grrr. bosan bosan bosan n panas. went through all the shop at that place. not all la. 1st jakels. arghh. like a zoo. kain jatuh atas lantai byk giler org. haih. dgn jalan to other places. at 6 or 7 balik hotel. then g mkn kat domino's . yeah!

sunday. go to times square and low yatt. abg punya pasal. jalan2 the whole day. haha.

monday. pavilion. the whole day jalan kat pavi. penat. ngaa.

tuesday. baru balik miri. sob sob. dah la mlm. haih.

from wednesday until sunday. the only day that i had to spend in miri. sob sob. mcm biasa g jumpa apis. then g jumpa pina. haa. on the next day jalan dgn pina apis andy. tgk movie night at the museum. parkson dah lain dah. dah besa. parking kat atas pun dah bkk. haha. ada secret recipe marrybrown n big apple. but big apple mahal. 1 box of 6 14 ringgit. haih. sushi king will be open soon. haa. why domino's havent come to miri? ngaaa. i bet if domino's come pizza hut and pizza haven susah nak beroperasi. haha. :D

then mcm biasa everyday jumpa apis. haih. one day we go for a picnic at esplanade. simple gile. all we have is hand made sandwich telur and tuna. haha. and teh o ais n teh bunga. haha. :D picnic yg tba2 n simple.

the last khamis went out with eda n man. lamak x jumpa dak duak ya. jumpa eda kat mall then go to umah man then g esplanade. haha. mlm kuar dgn amy. g fun fair. haha. boleh2 la. we sent about rm 40 just for the funfair. gila la.

on friday was our anniversary. xda la sambut glak. beysa2 jak. haa. hehe. g mkn laksa in the morning the ptg g btlu. my dad mbk g jalan. hope nak jumpa kay tp x sempat. mala jak x sempat. rya nya g miri pun x sempat. haa.

saturday ada mkn2 kat rumah nenek. umai n bubur pedas n laksa n satay. haha. suppose jumpa cdak omalley tp x sempat. haih.

sunday. balik. grrrrrrr.

oh ya. baby ada buat cupcake for me a box of ntah brapa. x kira. besstt. :D thanx baby for the cupcake. :) i'll upload the pic later k? mls la skrg. haha.

today class starts. dah pkl 8. haih. bosan bosan. nasib x blaja. lalala. haih.

dah2. actually mls nak tulis. babai. :)

i bought another box of cupcake. i really love this cupcake. grrr. at last aku dpt mkn cupcake. dari ariya maok mkn. hehe. :D but nanga cupcake ya kdk syg jak nak dimkn. can i keep it forever? awetkan ka. haa.


haih. hari ni exam. sungguh bosan. sbb aku kena baca 15 chapter. dah soalan 60 mcq. xnak byk lagi ke? adoii. kenape la aku kena ambik subject nih. haih. wish me luck people.

haih. exam at 9. arghh! mok tdo. :( bila exam mok habis? ngaa. lamak gk ba. i wanna go home. i want to go home right now. please. pretty please. :( dah la cuti kejap jak. cubala brk cuti 3 bulan ka. haa. best juak. haa.

dah2. got some reading to do. sob sob. :(

im tired. really damn fucking tired. with all your words. please. i've had enough. u just think about ur own feeling instead of considering mine. u wanted to fulfill ur wants and need but do u fulfill mine? i cant live like this anymore. im sick of this bullshit. why cant u understand me? why u just wanted to blame me in all the mess that has happened between us? why cant u be responsible for ur own fault?

eh sorry. lupak kau ya x fasih gilak english. aku nang bkn mpuan tbaek dlm dunia tok. aku x mintak pun jadi nok paling trbaek. ada aku pdh aku sorg jak mpuan nok tbaek dlm dunia tok? xda nak? aku x mcm ya glak ba bodo. kau pk aku tok apa? aku sedar ba sapa aku. kau hina aku lmk tok aku timak jak. kau anok aku timak jak. kau pdh kau bkn anok tp just pdh. pdh apa mun dah kau terang2 nganok. kau ya mun boleh smua kau nak nyalahkan aku eh. smua hal. kau mok kau sorg jak betol. kau pk kau raja ka? raja dk ada poleh slh. kakya kau pk kau sapa? tuhan? xda ciri2 pun eh. knk kau nak mlh aku mcm tok? knk kau ska nak nyeksa aku? sampe bila kau nak mlh aku kdk tok? sampe aku mati ka? aku mati kau tetak kali. mun aku mati pun aku suka sbb xda gk kau nak nyeksa aku gk. aku just nak ngadap tuhan kakya knk hukum dgn salah aku jak. bkn slh nok aku x plh. kau x pnh nak paham aku tp kau mok aku phm kau. dr dolok mcm ya. mun aku mdh ckit kau mdh aku melawan. bh kau nak aku tok diam ajak ka jadi bisuk? bagus kau jait mulut aku tok. aku pdh ckit marah. kau ya nang bengkeng eh. kau jajak nak menang. aku menang kau mrh. kau mala mdh nak ato relationship tp kau mgharap kat aku jak. kau harap aku mlh smua. kau pk aku tok apa?kau pk aku tok xda life ka kat ctok? kau pk aku xda benda lain ka nak dipk ctok? aku x call kau bisin. pdh xda kasih sayang. kau ya ada la call aku? kau mok aku jajak nok molah move. kau pk kau sapa? kau mok kaka kau la call. aku bz blaja ne ndak aku x call. mun aku x call kau x boleh ka call? ssh glak ka nak buang ego kau ya ckit? lelah dah aku dgn ego kau ya. sakit ati tauk x. kau soh aku brubah tp kau x brubah. apa2 aku plh smua x ckp eh bg kau ya. x ku tauk gk eh apa nok ckp bg kau ya. kau ya mok aku tundok kat kau jajak. dga ckp kau jajak. kau ya blm lagik jd laki aku nok bna2 dah nak mlh aku gya. dunia netok ne da laki kontrol mpuan. xda k kdk zaman dlk eh mpuan dok umah dga kata laki jajak walaupun apa laki soh plh ya kita xmok plh. xda mcm ya gk eh. kau pk tok cta p ramlee ka? p ramlee gk x plh mcm ya eh. haa. udah gk kau mcm ya glak eh. lelah dah aku nangga.

ok. dah gk aku ngepak. ngantok dah aku.

im so bored. i want to go somewhere. anywhere will do. as long it will make me relieved.

dah la. bai.