starting this week it will be a tough month for me. i have to study. a lot. and i hate it. i hope this end faster.
i feel so fucked up. i wanted to cry but i have spend all those tears until there is not enough for today. everything seems so messed up. whatever i do seems to be wrong to other people. from friends to love.
ive made mistakes. mistakes that i know i cant change anymore. its killing me. i dont like to reminisce my past because this is the part where ive been trying to forget for the rest of my life. but somehow no matter what i do it comes back to me. how i wish i could just press the erase button.
what did i do wrong and why did i do such thing?
love, why did u make me looked like and A-hole? what did i do wrong ? and why must im the one to be blame for all this thing that happen to us. no matter what i say u wont hear and no matter what i do it is still not enough. i did try to convince u and do whatever u asked me to but still u see its not enough. u wont tell me what is not enough. u dont understand love. what i do here and what i needed here. u will never understand what i need. all u know is u. only u. im trying my best love. but why cant u appreciate it? please love. try to understand me. im not after-spm girl anymore. im in university love. far far away from home sweet home. i cant just spend my money on top up only. i cant do that love. please try to understand. i need it for other things too. please understand when i say i wanted to save my budget. i cant top up everyday love. im not being haji bakhil but im trying to save my money. i cant depend too much on mummy love. i cant wasting my money buying things that i dont really need. please love. understand what im doing here. dont judge randomly. think love. for our sake.
i never forget. but sometimes im bz. i know its a lame excuse but thats all what i have to say. i didnt mean to forget but im really bz. im sorry. i know u must think that i forget about u but im not. i did looked at my calendar and mark that date. i dont know why suddenly i forget. mayb because i got exam on the next day. oh god. why did i turn to be like this. i wanna go home. i wanted to celebrate like we used to do in school. we did a lot of thing to surprise the others. different cake for different people. and different surprise. when will we be able to do that again? its have been 1 year i guess we didnt celebrate together. i miss u guys. i miss all my friends back in miri. my bestfriends my high school friends and the group.
Bila nak mlh reunion?:(
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